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Prelude
“I’m putting in my two weeks.” My supervisor stared across the table at me, wide eyed in excitement. “You got an offer?” We had been talking about me leaving the company for some time now. I was bored with my monotonous work. Every Monday there was a dread of coming in. When the alarm blared…
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A Criticism of Gay Culture by a Gay Man
“Don’t end up with a dude, Zach. They’re all terrible!” Matt blurted as Zach and I sat on the couch, drinking martinis. Matt and Zach are roommates, gay/bi (respectably), and not partners. In fact, when Matt introduces Zach to his gay friends, it normally goes something like this: “So-and-so, meet Zach, my roommate. No, we…
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Voicemails and Longing
I hung out with an old friend the other day! It was horrible… Not because the friend is horrible or that the time was horrible. It was horrible because it resurrected emotions and longings that I would rather have dead. It felt like a shadow of what once was but is no more. A shadow…
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Love Thyself
Love thyself. That is hard to do for a man attracted to men. How are you supposed to love yourself, when the rest of the world says that that piece of you is not loveable, especially the culture that says, “God is love”. The narrative reads, “Yes, God loves you, but not that part,” and…
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Ten Things Every Gay Man Wishes Straight People Knew…
Ten things every gay man wishes straight people knew… There is no “gay agenda” meeting – We’re not trying to make your kids gay or your wife a lesbian. We do want our love to have a level of normalcy. We also know how hard it was to feel “othered” growing up and don’t want…
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I Came to God for Witchcraft
“Dear God, come into my heart and make me powerful.” -Me, at the age of five. I don’t like sharing the deep details of my first encounter with God, because my intentions would be exposed… and my intentions weren’t pretty. After getting spanked with a belt for what felt like the hundredth time (young minds…
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Masculine Love
It. A horror movie that most of us are familiar with. But for me, it was so much more than that. “It” called out to longings in my heart… No… I don’t want to eat children and feed on their fear. But when a bunch of boys jump in a quarry, when they walk into…
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Faith
Faith. People say it’s simple. Maybe. But it’s also one of the hardest things. Looking at varying religions, to have faith in the One seems like a simple request. But it is the hardest of simple requests. Personally, I find faith murky and complicated, like stumbling through the dark. I think a lot of people…
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A Meal Fit for Thieves
Matthew nine has some pretty powerful passages. Ones that if we re-read, maybe we would be challenged at how exactly God works. It starts with a man on a mat, forgiven of sins. Why? Because he showed up. All he did was say, “I need you to touch me Jesus.” No sinners prayer. No five-step program…
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Arguing with God about Peanut Butter
I was in the grocery store yesterday, purchasing peanut butter, contemplating which brand I should buy. My wallet told me to buy a cheap one. God told me to buy an expensive one. For most people, peanut butter shouldn’t be a tension point with God. It was with me. And he was showing me His…